Trinity Dejavu

I love you more than I can say, my love, my life, my pet, my everything. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

The folks at the TGL organised a suprise party, you can see my pic’s on flickr here, and Caitlyn’s here.

Jim and Sarah came over and we all went out for a family meal to Three Margaritas, miya had something very weird, I discovered mushooms were yummy. Sang happy birthday and her mom called her miya, played on a ATARI 2600 flashback retro games console miya got for her birthday followed by Apples to Apples. We all had a really fun day. Big thank you to everyone who made it happen :)

On behalf of everyone I hope you have the best year yet, love you.

This time last year I was on the brink stepping out into the light, I knew it was what I had to do but wasn’t sure if the person I would be exposing to the world would be ready for the challenge, or if even if she had what it takes. I swore to myself that 30 would be the first year of the rest of my life, and it truly was

The biggest event for me was an epiphany of sorts. I didn’t need to meet any of the many preconditions for transition that I had been clinging to. I didn’t need a medical diagnosis, or hormones, or every facial hair removing or the blessing of the people around me. The real me, suppressed for so may years was banging at the door, her desperation for freedom was frightening and deeply disturbing, and instead of finding new ways to keep her at bay, all I had to do was open the door. I just needed to do it and I could and I did.

In that sense, the biggest changes in a year that saw me come out to every one, transition to living full time, legally changing my name (Trinity of course) and the end of my marriage were for the most part internal. The girl I had caged was free.

I’m at a loss for words to describe how much today has meant to me. A make over, chocolate, flowers and the company of my daughter and two true friends. Thank you, today has been the single best birthday I have ever had. I love you all so much.