Trinity Dejavu

Following on from news of my redundancy a few days ago, I got home from work feeling more than a little depressed. I had emailed the news home as soon as I knew it and spent the rest of the day worrying about the short term future, how to survive on what I would have as an income is something that filled me with dread. It’s been tight at the best of times balancing my income, credit card debts, rent, taxes, bills and food.

We (myself, miya and Sarah) had always planned to go to the US in mid to late June (at the end of their allowed tourist stay in the UK). The plan was to have all the required paper work in place so that I could change my status in the US and remain there to stay. So it was with some surprise that I was greeted with smiles and optomism when I arrived home after work. Upon hearing of my redundancy they had been busy working out a solution.

We’re leaving for the US at the end of April, I will stay there for 3 months on the visa waiver program (basically tourist, with no option to change status on that trip). By the end of the 3 months we hope to be settled somewhere in Washington (state, not capitol) and I will return to the UK in time for my daughters birthday. During that time we hope to have everything sorted out so that on my return to the US at the end of August I can enter the country on a visa that will allow me to stay.

I’ve given notice on my rented property and am working to offload everything I can’t take with me, which is pretty much everything!

In future I will try harder to work past my problems, try harder to treat adversity as a challenge and try harder not to slip into self defeating depression. Its not easy, especially while trying to get my mind back together after two years on anti-depressants, but I’m getting there with the help of my friends and new family.

Thank you all so much for showing me that even on the worst days there is always hope.